Now that the news is out, I thought I’d rewind and fill you in on how the last few weeks have been. I should warn you, I may come off like Debbie downer at times. But, I’m all about being truthful. This is a journey that I choose to document for myself, my kids, and those who may be experiencing (or have experienced) similar circumstances. Either way, I’m gonna give it to you raw and un-cut.
This post was originally written on Thanksgiving (11/22/2012), the day after we found out
Lately I’ve been feeling SO EXHAUSTED. Covering hurricane Sandy and trying to catch up on my studies have taken a serious toll on my body. Oh, did I mention motherhood? That’s a full time gig in and of itself. Despite the long days at work, I figured that the reason why I’ve been so tired is because I’m allowing my workouts to slip.
Before Princess, the gym was my go to place to relieve stress and keep my body in shape. I exercised throughout my pregnancy for goodness sake! But, it’s been tough these past couple years. So I’ve made it a point to kick myself in hire gear. Maybe upping my routine would lead to me getting my energy back. Yeah right (sarcastically speaking).
I’d workout and pass out after getting home. At work, I’ve been a walking zombie. In addition to being tired, I’ve been super sensitive. Watching movies during my run on the treadmill is my secret to keep going. It distracts me from looking at the time. The other day I was watching “Roller Derby” and randomly burst into tears. WTF?! I’m obviously a complete loser, and a super sensitive one at that. Yesterday I was watching “The Vow” and like “Roller Derby,” I began to cry. This time there was a good reason. This flick was based on a true story. If you haven’t seen it, you’d love it. It stars Rachael McAdams and Channing Tatum. Anyway, all these emotions and my exhaustion haven’t been making sense at all.
I haven’t been myself. But the one thing that has cheered me up- a once in a lifetime offer that I couldn’t refuse. Maybe that’s the kick I need! Maybe I’ve been bummed about my career, and now this chance may lead to something huge. Sorry I can’t go into details. I don’t want to jinx anything.
In any event, I’m so excited! However, I’ve been feeling a bit under the weather. “It’s my period for sure,” I said to myself. But then I started to think….
I couldn’t remember the last time it came. I whipped out my calculator and began counting. I realized that I could be a couple days late. But, I could be getting the dates mixed up. I counted again and my mouth fell to the floor. WTF!!
I’ve been feeling exhausted, bloated, and sensitive. Could I be? Nah! Impossible! Sort of:/
I rushed home to take the test and this is what it read:
WTF are we gonna do?!
Weather Anchor Mama
I appreciate your honesty! With our daughters the same age and pressure from everyone else to have #2 I can relate with how you feel and imagine I’d feel the same if I found out I was expecting #2. What’s funny is with my upcoming cruise everyone thinks it’s going to be “operation baby #2” O_o It would VERY immaculate if that were to happen LOL! About timing and your amazing opportunity you don’t want to jinx, my mom found out on her first day of grad school that she was pregnant with #4 and it was a real surprise. I was nearly 12 years old and understood the implications and watched her continue to go to school through the pregnancy and with the support of family. It really was an inspiration for me! Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy =)
Hopefully your ‘once in a lifetime opportunity’ won’t be affected by this news. If it is…just pray that God will open another door. I will admit…it was a little challenging going from one child to 2 but that also depends on your children’s temperament’s and how much help you get from your husband. I’m betting that your husband helps out a lot and if he doesn’t…now is time to step up his game. Now that I have 3 children under the age of 6 and the baby is almost 1…things have fallen into place. It is a challenge at times. Once you get in your second trimester you will feel more energetic and you can start working out again…even if it’s just a stroll with your daughter. I promise you….it CAN be done. Just take one day at a time and delegate when it’s appropriate. Praying for you and your growing family. 🙂
Thanks! Quiana, your mom is an inspiration. You may want to be careful though, number two could sneak up on ya when you least expect it. I’ve never been on a cuise before. can’t wait to see your pics have fun!
Thanks Jessie. I don’t know how you do it. I’m not completely done with the first trimester and I’m feel more energized. Thanks so much. You always give great advice.
Congratulations! You are an amazing woman. You are stronger and more powerful that you can ever imagine. The energy will return and you’ll handle whatever life brings your way. Whatever will be, will be, but you will be fine. Blessing for a healthy pregnancy, labor and delivery.
YAY!!!! Another pretty baby to watch grow up over cyder space! Congrats, mama!!